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Have you ever been SO glad that something has happened in one way but TOTALLY devastated about it in a complete different way ? *sigh*

I feel so selfish for even having some of the thoughts I've had today. I should be the happiest person alive from the news I got today, but all I can think about is what I will be loosing because of this wonderful news.

Sometimes I wonder why God even takes a second glance at me.


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my life is such a mess

i hate being sick

I hate being depressed

i hate missing my parents

i hate even waking up in the mornings

why am I here ??